[ poppin thru the nite!! ]
at 2:01 AM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
wanted to be lonely again.....
i think i used to being lonely nw....
walkin along the road......
listening to slow music.....
isn't it gd!!........
i mean.....
if someone is beside mi.....
i will be like thinkin wat to tok to her?....
y i haf nth to tok?.....
wat to tok?........
n i think becoz of this....
pple might think i m boring....
so might as well.....
walk alone.....
listening to songs tat suits my mood.....
i feel more comfortable.....
i dunno........
i dunno wat is happening to mi.....
i dunno y i get mood swing so easily.......
i dunno y i like to be lonely sometimes....or maybe most of the time....
can someone tell mi y?....
i cant mood swing.....
i might piss pple off wif my attitude..........
i cant play wif pple....
becoz...ya...i will oso pissed them off again....
watever i do.....
i will pissed them off....
y???!!!!....
i m fated to be lonely.......
i mean if i m wif someone...
is either i will haf nth to sae.....
if not.....i will do sumthing tat pissed them off......
y.......
y cant i make someone happy?......
i haf tried my best!!!......
i haf done alot of things...
but........
i nv make anyone happy before.....
i think....i tire.......
i nv get a chance to tok if ther is afew pple around.....
i think i m slowly drifting away from the usual crowd.....
into my own world.....
soon i will jus disappear in pple's memory............
jus gone like tat......
"pls pple......
if u ever find a true or real frienz.....
pls....cherish them!!
u r lucky to haf them.....
hold onto them wif all ur might!!....
dun ever make them sad
they are priceless"
[ poppin thru the nite!! ]
at 1:00 AM
Sunday, August 07, 2005
though todae was a boring dae....
at home dunno do wat!!.....
jus sit ther and rot...
becoz vonneh, orange and min min got work..
nw then i noe the importance of their presence!!!...
pls dun be proud!!...
no onli u guys.....
i mean if part of nra not free!!...
then the rest of them like got nth to do le!!
can sian until watch zhen qin....
si le si le......
auntie attitude!!...
cannot....cannot!!!
but...
but.......
i got a pair of new shoe from ma parents...
yeah.....
MISSY METRO ATTITUDE.......!!!!....WOOOOOO!!!...
CHECK TIS OUT!!!
The fur damn damn comfortable xia.....$149
quite cheap for a missy elliott edition de shoe lah!
but...quite warm lah..
becoz for cold country mah....
i saw a leather belt...
actually wanna buy de!!...
guess hw much?
it's 119 xia!!!...*faint*
then i wanna buy another shoe..
oso 149...
but its nike de...
becoz veri white....
macham sch shoe...
so nv buy.....
[ poppin thru the nite!! ]
at 10:25 PM
Friday, August 05, 2005
been so mani years....
still....
i m jus not the "real one".....
Sometime........
i thought to myself...
m i stupid?.....
though being used by pple....
i still wanna help them....
i wanna remain stubborn forever!!.....
this is wat i always asked myself.....
if someone were to fire a bullet at my frien
wat will i do?....
i m willing to block it....
i m willin to take tat shot!!....
i m willin to suffer the pain!!.....
as long as they are safe!!...
but i think.....
not anymore......
i m no one!!.....
maybe i live to accompany the loners!!....
and to let them abandon mi to find someone else!!......
i m jus a "dai ti"...
i will onli be a passer-by in someones life.....
last time....
i do felt comfortable being in there......
but nw....
i dun feet it anymore...
all i felt was....
loneliness.....
sometime.......
i wanna get away from there.......
jus wanna disappear like most quitters did......
jus disappear!!
[ poppin thru the nite!! ]
at 11:10 PM